growing home

by gold gloom

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Jack Alberson This sounds like dreams feel. Not always beautiful, often uncertain, but awe-inspiring at times. This record feels like the other side of a crucible. Or at least a progress point in this midst of a painful journey.
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about

transitioning from confusion, hurt, denial, rejection, self destruction, to acceptance and eventually growth

we’ve been working really hard to make this meaningful and allowing it to be a personal (but universal) attempt at reclaiming the moments of childhood that mental illness blurred, coming to a conclusion that the ways we grow up perceiving the world are unique, sacred and fragile experiences

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released July 25, 2016

ella (crunch) + caragan (slim) - vocals, guitar, recording, whatever else

special thanks to the following lovely people for their willingness to let us record their voices, n for the kind words, support + luv:
bailey dupuis, dominic jersak, joey ezra rich, feven banyard, zack kaufman, stasha gacpar, sierra ray

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gold gloom Abbotsford, British Columbia

2 girls from the fraser valley making sad dreamy tunes in their bedrooms

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Track Name: april come home
(tell me about your childhood)
Track Name: candy keys, the girl who never saw an ice cream truck
(some experiences just weren't mine -)
Track Name: drinking golden milk
(searching for security in helplessness)

on friday nights
that girl goes to the park
says i wont get better
i wont find help

she sits in the dugout
and smokes in the dark
i wont get better
i wont find help

she's glowing
she's angelic
she's going
to heaven
i love her
i need her
i love her
i need her

she is a burden to the people who care
she wants to reach out
she wants to reach out
she wants to reach out
she wants to reach out

she is a burden to the people who care
she wants to reach out
she wants to reach out
she wants to reach out
theres nothing there

she's glowing
she's angelic
she's going
to heaven
i love her
i need her
i love her
i need her
Track Name: stuffed rubber boys
(spending hours searching for definitions)

ella: i'm seeing you all in like, a movie about little kids, like a kindergartener movie-
caragan: like little rascals?
ella: yeah. and like, i know which character you would all be, but i don't know who i would be. who would i be?
caragan: you would be, um... i really love this movie
[all laugh]
caragan: i liked it a lot when i was little i don't know why. you would be, um, spanky.
ella: who's spanky?
caragan: spanky's the kinda like, lead guy of the no girls club -
ella: we should skype joey.
caragan: - like, i wanna say you'd be darla but you wouldn't be darla, but there's no other girls in it, cause you [dominic] would be alfalfa for sure. and alfalfa loves darla, he sings her; "you are so beautiful to me, can't you see?"
ella: who's alfalfa?
caragan: he's the guy whose hair just sticks up like this, and it's really like, slicked up, and he's kind of nerdy. and he's in the boys club which is no girls allowed but he secretly has a crush on darla and he sneaks out to see her.
ella: darla...
caragan: darla's the main girl. but you're not like darla. you're more like... it's more like if alfalfa had a crush on spanky, but it was a no gays club, like. like if you altered the storyline a bit...
ella: a no gays club... what is this
Track Name: compulse and flow
(- but obsessive compulsive disorder was)

we feel stones in our skin
hear whispering winds
calling us back to them
we cant hold back the touch
each thought is too much
nerves are all pulled so thin

we have been too high have been too high have been too high, before
we have been too high have been too high have been too high, before

we buy rest in our steps
they deal us in moments
away from the mess
we take pills to calm down
these urges surround
til everything shrinks to less

we have been too high have been too high have been too high, before
we have been too high have been too high have been too high, before
Track Name: candy keys goes to the playground
(learning about life)

the swings are breaking from me cause my soul is just too heavy
i know too much i talk too much i cant erase that childish touch

was never good at making friends, did i make you? it just depends
come and meet me at the playground
we'll do drugs and hang around
Track Name: death is coming for me
(budding depression)

"im sitting there like, i'm like, this can go one of two ways. like this whole thing. i get a really good grade, i get away with this... or... i don't"

"its fucking normal as hell! i know, that i am gonna die in hell"
Track Name: away from me
(painful experiences having meaning)
Track Name: ambien(ce)
(walking alone thru an empty house)
Track Name: moonrise
(i cling to things)

i can't sleep tonight
wonder if you'll call me
ask me to come see you soon
you know i won't say no to you

i can't sleep tonight
wonder if you'll call me
over to the window
i know i cant say no
Track Name: be anyone
(uniqueness is inevitable, relevance is nonexistent, importance is relative; strip away the feelings of restlessness that go along with being perfectly regular. accept the greatness of your former self. teach them the world is perfectly simple and strange)
Track Name: god is here and she's in our apples
("drinking water and eating plants are the most spiritual experiences we will ever witness")
Track Name: end
(stay little)